Over the last couple of weeks the action of working two jobs (over the last year and a half) is beginning to take its toll. I am absolutely exhausted. I a person who rarely drank coffee am trying to find a way to have an IV drip to supply me with the constant supply of caffeine that I need to carry out my day.
I have been sleeping anywhere the bus, the subway. I have had the pleasure of having strangers wake me up at the end of the subway line to tell me that I have reached. At first I was extremely embarrassed. Now....Not so much...I just say thank you and move on my way. As long as I have not been caught drooling...which I have on more than one occasion. I’m good
Over the last three months I have been calling in sick at least once a month because I am unable to peel myself out of bed. This is completely out of character for me. Well, that’s not true. I have always had a hard time getting to work on time but it is out of character for me not to go to work. I thank God that my workplace is flexible because I am sure by now I would have been dragged into someone’s office for the talk by now.
However, as my renovations are facing completion the act of selling the majority of my belongings to move downstairs is beginning to scare me. Logically speaking I know it is the best thing for me....I get that I really do, but the anxiety that I am experiencing maybe be bigger than my decision to purchase my house and move out for the 1st time.
The fear of depending on someone else to cover my expenses is a difficult thing for me. But I know its for the best. I am willing to give it a try in order to experience financial freedom.
Once the renovations have been completed and my new home has been furnished I will provide you with some before and after pictures.
About Me
- Me and my life
- I am a single black woman in her early thirties who realizes that while I enjoy a few things in life I rarely get to enjoy them. I am participating in this blogging experience to with all honestly try something new and because of the arm twisting of my co-worker. Hell this is cheaper than counselling.To put myself out there. I am a person who uses the computer on a daily basis yet I am still so far removed from technology. I don't use instant messenger..it freaks me out. While I am on Facebook I certainly don't use it as a social site so blogging about my everyday life is far removed from what I do but isn't that what life should be about trying something different. So this is it.
4 comments:
"The fear of depending on someone else to cover my expenses is a difficult thing for me"
Why?
Allow a strong man to come in your life and take care of you. It is your nature to be dependent on a man. Then you won't have to work so hard. :)
Hi. I have been in a similar situation. The Trump Network allows me to have a little more time with my family. I have been able to quit my second job thanks to the opportunity.If you'd like to learn more, check out my link: bit.ly/wealth7. It opens a wide array of opportunities. thanks
I agree w. @Anonymous, sometimes we have to pull back a bit & let God control our lives...it is a scary thing..trust me I know, I'm 24 and single......but a good friend once told me that if your single, perhaps God just needs for it to be that way right now so that you may be able to obtain the blessing that He has in store for you. Just think..if you had a man right now,u wouldn't have been able to start this blog (@ least not on this specific topic).
I thiink your blog is an interesting subject and I look fwd to reading more for you.
Stay in the best of spirits chica, 2010 is on its way, celebrate life, be joyful & never 4get that all good things come with time. Inner patience is calm to an external storm!
I have be working a full and part-time job for over 15 years. It will get easlier I promise..... Just hang in there.
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