Dating...why is it always so Complicated

Listen…I pride myself in being an intelligent person but where men are concerned I am retarded, disabled. I am superman and dick is my kryptonite.  That’s why as of recently where certain friends are concerned I am open to blind dates because they have my best interest in heart and I have lost faith in my ability select a good man.

Now the last entry I wrote talked about how I was set up on a blind date. Gave my friend props for the set up but I wrote that things were.....eh ....beginning to fizzle out. Well I kind of take that back we are still talking and he seems like a genuinely sweet guy.  Do I still have my reservations about certain things….Absolutely?  How important they are to me is where I don’t know. I have reviewed a few things he actually does not get paid poorly. I get paid well (I am not rich) but I was comparing to me and my career. The debt piece will always be a concern but I think that goes hand in hand with having an MBA. He is underpaid based on his skill level but that is for him to decide and rectify.

But this guy is very relationship oriented as such so early in the game do I stick with him or continue to play the field. He talks about dating over the summer so he is definitely interested in the long haul.  We are not exclusive so how honest am I supposed to be? He mentioned that he isn’t seeing anyone else? Am I morally obligated to say shit if I am going on another date? This guy is super sweet there is something different about him that I can't quiet place.

I would love for someone to explain to me the how the universe works and why is it so cruel. For months I haven’t been on a date hell it might have been a whole year. How is it that as soon as I find a potential, men with possibilities are coming from every possible direction.

I met with a good friend that wanted me to meet a colleague/friend who is a corporate lawyer, I met a man last week at a club of all places who is 6'6 a licensed plumber, owns his own place, no kids and he is 33 just like me. He is a definitely a man’s man. Just the way I like them. I will be going on a date with him today.

Corporate lawyer was nice but just not for me.  The plumber knows that I am dating but bachelor number 1 still has no clue that I am dating other people.   I have been delaying the inevitable. He is the sensitive type and I just don't want to screw things up. I want to figure out what is best for me but without anyone getting hurt. Is that even possible?

To further complicate things I was talking to bachelor one and because of his religious beliefs and his personality I asked him how many sexual partners did he have. Normally I avoid that question because with the people I am normally with I am just disgusted. I just protect myself at all costs. With him I knew it was a safe question to ask. But this is when I found out that I am dating a 30 year old virgin.  Oh my God.  I was like.... ha ha.... funny funny.....no seriously how many people have you been with. He then said ask our friend (his close friend since they were 8) I am serious. I must have said oh my God repetitively for 15 minutes.... easy.  He said he ideally like to wait for marriage. Now that I know this... so much makes sense but he was in a relationship for 1 year and a half. WOW! Well I certainly can’t tell him this week that I am dating someone else. I am sure that he will equate that to me finding out that he is a virgin.

Somehow knowing that I sex is not an option with bachelor #1 makes me want sex with him all the more. I guess you always want what you can’t have.  OOOhhhh if I start dating #1 exclusively it is on. I will let him know the plan from jump so he can jump ship if necessary.

I’ll write soon. Starting a new job. Renovations almost complete. I have a lot of pictures and info to share but this was a must share.

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